Finally At Peace: Love For 30 Project

I want to wish Crystal a very Happy (belated) birthday and for sharing the wisdom she has learned thus far into her 30s and how she has learned to live her true life.

If you are interested in Joining the Love or 30 Project, please email me and I will give you all of the details to guest post. mythirtyspot[at]gmail.com

Me at 24-years-old

On September 26, I celebrated my 33^rd birthday. The day was pretty low-key, no fancy dinner or diamonds. In fact the only thing I did was go out to breakfast with the Hubby and then a walk in Lowe’s. I’ll be the first to admit, it took me awhile to be content with myself and my age once I hit 30. As I look back I know now that I was “bugging out” over nothing. My twenties were filled with fear, unhappiness and low self-esteem. You see…

Then: I stressed over EVERYTHING! I strived for perfection in all that I did. I wanted to please everyone so much to the point that I didn’t please me. Molding myself to be what others wanted, made me lose sight of who I really was.

Now: It’s either love me or leave me. It is what it is.

Then: I hated my own image; I wanted a tummy tuck, nose job, etc. My husband was not allowed to look at my naked body, I was so ashamed.

Now: Even though I’m the heaviest that I’ve ever been, I’m proud to say that I still look great after having four kids. My stretch marks are now called “battle scars” I earned them and wear them well. My body is no longer a concern when it comes to my husband, I bore his beautiful kids. It may not be the same body as when I was twenty but my confidence makes things ALL better.

Then: I was so impatient, I didn’t take time slow down. Several moments have been missed because I was too busy hanging my head low in a state of self-pity. I’d lay in bed all day feeling sorry for myself.

Now: After a near death experience, I don’t want to stop. I just want to live and take in everything. My kids are my priority, I want them to experience all that l and life has to offer.

Then: I relied solely on my husband to make me happy.

Now: I realize that happiness is a choice. The more committed I am to making me happy, the happier I can make others.

Life is a learning experience, I learn more each day. Getting older is not a choice, but I can chose how I live. Lover, Loved, Content and Blessed ß that’s who I am today and I wouldn’t trade it for the world.

Bio: Crystal a mother four uniquely awesome kids, married to my prom date. Author of Momma Blogga, creator of the NICU Journal and the founder of the Gift Of Faith Project. 

Blog: http://brownsistacrista.blogspot.com/